Sometimes Christmas Is Hard…

Sometimes Christmas is hard…

It’s hard when you are missing someone at the dinner table or at Christmas Mass.
It’s hard when the Christmas dinner is served with a side of grief.
It’s hard when you can’t buy gifts for someone you love so much because they live in Heaven.
It’s hard when there won’t be any presents under the Christmas tree from the one you miss the most this year.

Sometimes Christmas is hard…

It’s hard when you can’t make new memories or take new pictures because someone is missing.
It’s hard when the old ornaments and movies bring back memories of when they were still here.
It’s hard when your heart is broken but everywhere you turn there is talk of joy.

Sometimes Christmas is hard…

But then you realize that even though someone is missing from the table they aren’t gone because they live in you.
Then you realize that even though you can’t take new pictures or make new memories, the old ones will mean more than ever before.
Then you realize that even though the seat is empty, the tears are falling and you wish they would walk through that door and surprise you, you know if they could then they would.

Sometimes Christmas is hard but you realize that they never really left, Christmas just looks different than you had planned but they are always there with you.

And after all, Christmas is only about the greatest gift… JESUS.

Mariana Martinez, OblSB

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